Cerita Tentang Farhana

 Hi, Today 30 March 2023 , I know my hubby is at the office . I know he is busy . Yesterday he wrote to me this You looked really tired in the pictures. Please take care of yourself k..get enough rest. Hubby , you are the reason why I am not well . You still don't get it. Why must I take care of myself while you are destroying it . Everyday I am trying to be strong while I am NOT. I will not explain to you that I am suffering. I will NOT tell you I am sad. Cos nothing will happen. So for now I am just going to hold on until that day. 

 Hi, Yesterday I dated my hubby. We went to KFC near my office . It was good . He was so loving. I know it is hard for me to forget about us. but for now I need to concentrate on myself first. I need to focus loving me. I know it is difficult for me and him. I love him no matter what is going to happen to us both. I will still carry that love. Just that everything need to be fix for now. I love you hubby thank you for yesterday KFC memories . It was so beautiful.

 Ya Allah malam ni aku mohon Engkau jagalah bakal imamku Abang H   Engkau redha dan kasih beliau ya Allah. Ya Allah Engkau jadi kan beliau ahli syurga Firdaus mu tanpa dihisab dan diazab. Ya Allah kami mohon terima lah taubat kami.  Ya Allah ,aku lepaskan kekasihku kerana mu ya Allah.  Semoga Engkau satukan kami satu hari nanti.  Terima kasih ya Allah kerna meminjamkan Abang H untuk ku walaupun 5 bulan. Saya sangat bahagia dan bersyukur atas hubungan ini. Abang H,  saya mohon maaf kerana saya kurang sabar dalam hubungan ini. Tolong jangan balas this message.  Simpan apa yg terpedam dalam hati Abang.  Saya mohon supaya kita terus berdoa jika Abang masih cinta. Good night Sayang

Hi, I slowly understand why at times my hubby is so excited sharing me about ISLAM.. I never knew he has reason behind it.. Myself at times I felt rimas not because I don't love him but he share with me too much information ... Now I get it why he is acting this way ... "I sedih bila abah meninggal i tak pernah merasa solat dgn abah dia jadi my imam. So i did not want that to happen with boys. So that was my motivation to learn.. merangkak rangkak hafal. I selalu practice hafal masa kayuh basikal jauh2.."

 Hi ,  Lately I text my hubby telling him what I feel. Maybe he knows I will be okay but sometimes I know he cares . Slowly he send me messages about Islam . He is preparing to at least provide me a better life bila dia tak de nanti. As for me I don't know what to expect from this. I might be broken and I might be strong. I am not sure As for now I am going to take a step at a time.

 Hi,  I told my hubby that I will not be seeing him anymore after raya. I know I will be sad, but I think probably I am indirectly telling myself that I will be okay. I know it will be very hard for me tapi I selalu mampu be strong walaupun I know I are fragile.  I love my husband so much but I cannot be selfish . I let Allah decide what is best for us. For now he will leave me hopefully for a while.  I miss him so much...